I used to have a notebook full of things I wanted to write to you about. Pages of lists. Things I was going through and knew that one day I'd figure out and help you figure out. And if not figure out, at least let you know that it gets better.
Love + heartache + passion + loneliness
Dreams + sadness + beauty + grief
And I had these dreams of guiding you through the darkness, letting my words be our light.
And yet, sometimes I don't know what to say. Sometimes all I know I can say is keep going. Because I know you'll do it your way...I did. No matter what advice people gave me, it was my journey and I had to figure it out.
So yes, keep going. The light gets brighter. Even in the darkest holes there is a light in the palm of your hand that grows and grows if you keep looking at it.
But you have to keep looking at it. When there's darkness all around, keep looking at it.
It will be easy to sit there in the dark thinking this is just who I am. This is how it has to be. This is what makes me different.
You might think you won't be able to do anything without the dark. Write, paint, sing, love. In some ways it fuels you and if you let that go who will you be? What will you create?
But that little light is just as powerful, and if you crawl out of the dark with the light in your hand, you'll see you're still unique. You're exactly who you need to be.
And you will create. You will love. Even better than before.