I'm not really sure what I want to write about, but I have the urge to do so.
I guess I want to say that I don't quite know where this blog is headed, and I'm okay with that.
Not that I don't want it to continue, but that it doesn't really have a path. There's no "end game" to it. There's no intention, like making money, behind it.
In the beginning there was. Way back in 2011/12 I wanted it to be a starting place for my freedom. I wanted The Sacred Middle (which was initially called Gypsy Love Warrior) to be how I made money. And it did here and there, but that's not what's important to me now.
I made a name for myself in the wedding industry and I'm happy with that. That's where I make money. That's where I put my business focus.
For a long time I frustrated myself because I was trying to run two businesses, two very different businesses. There was the wedding writing business and there was The Sacred Middle, and I could never really find footing for TSM. It felt abstract.
I thought it might be like Gala Darling when she first started and she just wrote amazing blog posts and inspired people and she became her own brand. Then she wrote a small book and this and that, and I thought, maybe I can do that. But the internet had already evolved and I couldn't catch up.
I didn't want to make videos or play on social media all day or make tons of courses. I certainly didn't want to think like a business person. I wanted it to be easy and evolve effortlessly (like I thought it had for so many others).
Everyone knows that blogging to make a buck is hard, or at the very least, time consuming. And although a part of me really wanted to sit in front of a computer and write all day, another part wanted to go to the beach and explore and attend parties and you know...just live life.
I'm afraid if I don't offer a bunch of stuff to you all, that I'll lose you. People want stuff, but I don't have it in me (at this moment) to create courses and e-books and whatever else becomes popular.
I really do just want to write. I want The Sacred Middle to be a place of inspiration. Like the old days, remember? Live Journal? Zines?
I hope you do find inspiration here. With or without "stuff."
What's Been on my mind lately
- Time management
- The writer's life
- Focus and productivity
I really, really, really, really want to write a novel, but I'm stuck in that classic loop of having an inkling of an idea, get really excited and start writing about the idea, get half way through writing the novel (or probably less that 1/2), have no idea where the story is going, get another shiny, new idea that seems better, abandon the old novel idea, start the new one, and around and around we go.
I've gone through at least three cycles of that.
These books are helping with all the stuff I've been thinking about and dealing with:
- The Plot Whisperer: Secrets of Story Structure Any Writer Can Master by Martha Alderson
- Growing Gills: How to Find Creative Focus When You're Drowning in Your Daily Life by Jessica Abel
- Daily Rituals: How Artists Work by Mason Currey
In a way, I feel bad for thinking about such trivial things during such a messed up time in our world.
But all of these tragic events remind me that most things we find important in life are trivial. Material things, for instance. It can all be wiped out, just like that. Your house could get flooded or go up in flames and then what? What do you have when you strip away all the material stuff?
Support, shelter, food, water - that's all that really matters. In a post apocalyptic world, none of us would think about what clothes to wear or if our food came from Whole Foods. I mean seriously. Why do we waste heart beats on this stuff?
Eat some meat and vegetables, own a few outfits you really love, do whatever lights you up, help those around you, spend time with people you adore.
But now I'm rambling...
Anywho, that's some stuff that's been swirling around in my mind.
What's going on in yours?