This morning I felt a bit of envy. It seems like all the bloggers I read have these amazing, glamorous, & exciting lives, & mine is just…meh. They are writers & photographers & work for fashion magazines & go to glitzy parties & talk about art & books whilst wearing fabulous shoes and frothy dresses. I work in an office with no windows & push paper from 7:45-4:45 Monday through Friday. Ack! I feel bad for complaining even a little bit. I am grateful, I really am & I live a good life, but in comparison it just seems so lackluster. The grass is always greener, right?
Do you ever feel like this?
I think it would help us to write about what makes our lives beautiful.
My boyfriend who loves me dearly & reminds me every day that I am beautiful & loved/family, even when they can be a pain in the butt, they have always been there for me/Freddy, who loves to cuddle & play chase & makes me smile no matter what/this gift of writing & dance & creativity/to live in a city that is still boasting 70+ degree weather in November/co-workers who keep me laughing/a beautiful home & neighborhood to go home to at the end of the day/a way to connect to all the gorgeous souls across the world/my heroes/fairy tales & poetry/music/new possibilities every day/and of course, God & my angels who protect, love, & push me onward.
And now it’s your turn…
Do you ever feel like this?
I think it would help us to write about what makes our lives beautiful.
My boyfriend who loves me dearly & reminds me every day that I am beautiful & loved/family, even when they can be a pain in the butt, they have always been there for me/Freddy, who loves to cuddle & play chase & makes me smile no matter what/this gift of writing & dance & creativity/to live in a city that is still boasting 70+ degree weather in November/co-workers who keep me laughing/a beautiful home & neighborhood to go home to at the end of the day/a way to connect to all the gorgeous souls across the world/my heroes/fairy tales & poetry/music/new possibilities every day/and of course, God & my angels who protect, love, & push me onward.
And now it’s your turn…
Speaking of higher wisdom, God has not sugar coated anything for me lately. I’ve been asking a lot of questions about happiness; sometimes this horrible, mean voice pollutes my mind with, “God wants you to suffer. Who are you to ask for anything? You are not worthy of your dreams & passions, so get over it.” That angry voice has put me in a tail spin over the past few weeks, but The Voice, the true voice spoke up yesterday & gave me a kick in the pants. The conversation went something like this:
The Voice: What would you lose if you believed good things could happen?
Me: Well, if I hoped for good things & then they didn’t happen then I would’ve wasted all that time hoping for nothing.
The Voice: But would you be happy believing in good things?
Me: Yes
The Voice: Then it wouldn’t be wasted.
And then…
The Voice: What if life isn’t about earthly happiness? What if it’s about true happiness? Could you accept true happiness over what you believe would make you happy?
Wow! A revelation to say the least. And then I read a blog post by Janet Connor of Writing Down Your Soul about this very thing. About how life isn’t about getting, but giving; allowing, not requesting. You can read the article here: http://janetconner.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/what-lies-beyond-the-law-of-attraction/
On my drive back home yesterday, I heard one last thing whispered in my ear, “God does not want you to suffer, that’s why he does everything he can to protect you while still allowing you to learn & grow in spirit.”
Like I said, nothing has been sugar coated; there’s been none of this life is easy and you’ll receive whatever you want. That’s what God’s been trying to tell me & my soul has wrestled, let me tell you. But when I stopped wrestling & actually listened to what else he had to say, it wasn’t so bad. No, it’s not always going to be easy & you might not get what you want, but you will get something better. Something true.
Is there anything on your mind, dear one? Spiritually, financially, emotionally? If you want to share, please do. We’re all in this together.
The Voice: What would you lose if you believed good things could happen?
Me: Well, if I hoped for good things & then they didn’t happen then I would’ve wasted all that time hoping for nothing.
The Voice: But would you be happy believing in good things?
Me: Yes
The Voice: Then it wouldn’t be wasted.
And then…
The Voice: What if life isn’t about earthly happiness? What if it’s about true happiness? Could you accept true happiness over what you believe would make you happy?
Wow! A revelation to say the least. And then I read a blog post by Janet Connor of Writing Down Your Soul about this very thing. About how life isn’t about getting, but giving; allowing, not requesting. You can read the article here: http://janetconner.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/what-lies-beyond-the-law-of-attraction/
On my drive back home yesterday, I heard one last thing whispered in my ear, “God does not want you to suffer, that’s why he does everything he can to protect you while still allowing you to learn & grow in spirit.”
Like I said, nothing has been sugar coated; there’s been none of this life is easy and you’ll receive whatever you want. That’s what God’s been trying to tell me & my soul has wrestled, let me tell you. But when I stopped wrestling & actually listened to what else he had to say, it wasn’t so bad. No, it’s not always going to be easy & you might not get what you want, but you will get something better. Something true.
Is there anything on your mind, dear one? Spiritually, financially, emotionally? If you want to share, please do. We’re all in this together.
